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I got an unexpected visit from the voices today. I was doing just fine in phlebotomy lab, drawing blood and having a good time, when I just hit an emotional wall and shut down. The desire to hurt myself came rushing back as if it had never left. I am rather glad that with others around me, I have just enough self control to keep it at bay, but now I'm afraid to home. Afraid to have that chance to be alone. I don't know of anyone around here that would understand. So here I am again, alone,… Continue

I'm thinking about starting to write. I don't know if it is going to be a book, songs, poetry, or just wramblings. I have been losing sleep lately because I have all these words in my head and my heart that want to come out, but everytime I have a spare moment, all these words refuse to stand in line and come out in an orderly manner. I'm tired, delerious and that old voice, the bad one, is making appearances here and there and I have come too far to let that back into my life. I'll let ya know… Continue

Did you like that title? I only used it to get your attention and to tie into the subject of my post which is, I don't like change. First of all, I found out that the school I attend doesn't think we get enough homework to do. I already have to leave my daughter with my mother 2 nights a week in order to get homework, studying and research done, now I possibly have to leave her more? This makes me sad and angry, which for me is not a good combination.

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A little bit of history, my ex girlfriend called me suddently a couple of weeks ago wanting me to come to the emergency animal hospital to pick up my son. Apparently, her dog, which is a called a chiweenie and is the size of a large New York rat, was attacked by some neighborhood stray dogs and needed surgery. I have never liked this dog, or any dog like it. I am more of a large breed person. Anyhoo, I considered it to be a bonus to spend some extra time with my son. The following week, she…

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I'm back. I don't know how much I'll be on here, but I'm back. I have taken a lot of time, and a lot of steps. I have stumbled and fallen a few times, but I never took my eyes off of my goals and never let being awake keep me from dreaming. Through all of the obsticles, I have made such wonderful progress. I start school for a much better career next month. I am slowly feeling my way around my depression, anxiety and paranoia. I have even done the one thing that I thought was impossible, I…

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