Myself.

I dont talk to people much because when I talk I feel like im saying the wrong words.  I dont like doing most things because I usely dont do it right.I havent made a real new friend in years. I dont feel like myself near my brother and sister, around them I feel like a little child that cant do anything right and I can throught them pretending to be nice and I know they dont care at all.  I stay in my room all day because I dont have anywhere to go and no one to go to.  I lie to myself and everyone around me.  Everyday I push people away because I dont want them to hurt me with false hope and promises.  Sometimes I feel like a monster.  I also feel like some people see me as a monster.  I want to mean something.